new skin~

yea yea~
i changed new skin~
kind of laggy....
thanks to will that help me and guide me all along~
xie xie ni le~
he guide to along to add the clock...
the colour.... ^^

anyway....
i like tatty teddy aka me to you....

tatty- torn;worn out.... etc la...

the story is nice...

but i love my monya hubby more~

today know alot sad news of him...
like what he sae...
won't affect me too much de la
erm shall be yesterday coz now 4am le....

i believe in karma~ LOL...

31st le
what is my new year hope ley
it's to move on from my past~
yea yea~ ^^

i still feel so sick...

rest 1 day plus already....
i still feel so sick and tired.......
very sleepy....

that day fever so near to 39~
my new record~ lol
now still have sorethroat and cough...
haiz

i want to eat chocolate ice cream!!!!!!!!
i wan i wan!!!!!!
but berries say i cannot eat...
everyone say i cannot eat!!
why nobody side me say i can eat!!!!

nvm....
i still will eat no matter they sae yes or no....
but just don't know i have the strength to go and buy or not!! hahaha

just now i play CO...
he's accounts sold to nemesis....
for 200USD

haiz.....
better don't go think about him....

ok ok i go down buy ice cream le...
hahaha

project day...

today go to maine hse to do project de....
but in the end we watch hana yori dango~
lei bery cute~~~!!!

at 8+ i began to feel super cold.....
i ask fen and maine they both feel cold too...
so i tot nth is wrong with me....

throat pain, head pain and giddy....
and very cold....
i drink alot water...

not forgetting the jack fruits and chocolate.... lol~

when i reach home i reali dun feel well at all...
so i measure myself and it's 38 degee... lol~
at 1st is juz 37.8

hmm
will it get worst?
well i dunno....
hope not la new year is coming
muz drink alot alot water

think hor these days reali make me so sick...
at 1st caugth in rain....
wet all over...
where will recover wor....

then go in air con room....

then eat some chocolate.... but i onli eat 2!!!

it's not the time to think why am i sick it's the time to think
how to make myself feel better~

think i'll stop here....
Hao xin ku wor...

life is a hassle~

tired tired

slp a long time le....

still very tired....
metal will have a day that it will break de..
i trying to be strong, and i still will break down de...

i trying to see things from pple point of view as always....
but they didn't do it for me....

i trying to be there for pple...
but when i need them where actually are they at that moment?

life is fair...
you get what you sow for....
but for me it didn't....
so i gave up le....

a girl who really love a guy come from malaysia to singapore
to get an ans
and that guy cannot accept what she is....
haiz....

life is a hassle....

ARG~ christmas eve!!!

piss off today....
i hate it....

wake up damn early...
go hospital...
they sae meet doctor... go le nth...
nvm....

reach home i ask sandy meet what time she keep sae see 1st...
then i go watch tv.....
when i go back look at phone... already 2:56...
she tell me meet at 3

omg....
i hv not even bath yet...
i sms her tell her 3:40...
i go bath...
then my mum ask me to do something...
i go out already late... nvm lo....
my place damn flood.... jeans wet le....

she want go a frien place...
i tell her no i dun wan coz jeans more wet...
plus raining i sick de....
caught in rain fine nvm.....
then damn wet..... ARG....
very very wet.... i hate it when i'm wet...

when i late she nv gv me chances to explain onli keep sae i always late
i diam diam
the way she say make people didn't want to explain...
then sae i make her wait 1 hour plus before...
please that was she actually meeting other pple i sae i will join her later....
then they put her areoplane...
sometimes i keep late i know...
because my mum always ask me to do things....
or i watch tv too shiok... and people suddenly ask me go out sae meet in 30 min
if people late i say abit nvm but she keep on saying de non stop...
machiam pple no temper....

worst is she promise won't step on water... coz i dun wan get very wet...
but there's alot!
then she sae u damn ye man when she see me...
when i compaint abt being wet she comment me that again...
fine i keep quiet then she keep compare me to other people sae
they nv complaint about getting why you keep complaint...

then she complaint to a guy of me...
he sae i deserve it...
omg who wun get angry?

in a fit of anger...
i went home to change to dry clothes...
she write on her blog and complaint about me!!
ok you all go read and be judge...
by the way i know you will be reading also... take a look from my point...

when i going out meet people de....
that guy call and sms me... keep wan to meet me...
pass me things...
omg....
i tell him i meeting friends... not free....
that gal.... sae continue ignore...

when i reach there...
wait 40 min.....
they keep sae wait 20 min more...
then sae wait 15 min more
then sae wait 5 min more...

i waited more then that...

till hp flat...
fine nvm......
hp setting all gone....
this time reali dulanz le...

anyway to u.... u shall know la......
dun need call me i wun answer de....
i very angry, very moody le....

i not suitable for u...


my world had fallen apart...... damn it.......

granny...

today sad....
saw my granny dunno what she talking....
but she know i who....
sad sad....

haiz.........
sad......

veri tired also........

exam i dunno how to do....
all anyhow write.....

no mood to blog le.....

life is a hassle.......

granny... please recover fast

today went to hospital again....
she's out of HDU...
but her condition isn't very good yet...
i call her she nv answer....
but she grab my hand....

her hand was tie to bed....
because she pull out the tub that was fix to her nose....
she can't eat anything yet....

when i look at her i cry.....
my heart reali pain alot......

granny please recover faster....
i bring you back to bukit batok to eat bo bo cha cha or even sushi....
anything u wan....

i rather use my life span to Xchange for ur health and happinese....

life is reali a hassle......

fucking life!

ARG!!!!
i really really piss off with life!!!
why do life have soooooo many regret?
do people really regret when something bad happen?

yesterday i went shop for xchange gift still can't find any....
plan to shop again today.
but..

my grandma had a fall....
in really really bad condition....
my aunt only find out few hour later...

went to visit her just now...
when i call her, she didn't have any reaction...
her left body can't feel anything now...
blue black all over...
she seem to slim down alot... to bones now...
her jaws like dislocated
her hand are wraped in something,
maybe her bone cracked
she depend on oxygen tank now

she's in HDU, something like ICU.....

fine fine~
damn piss off now....
later my relative gonna quarrel over this for sure!!
damn them......
they only care about her when something happen...

few weeks back we just celebrate my granny birthday,
they even lost temper on her....
my granny cried that day....
she didn't even have cakes...

if they really quarrel,
shall i say something to them...
shall i scold them?
to them i'm too young to have a say...

ouch my poor ear....

yesterday go shopping for present X-change....
dunno what to buy sia........ *stressed*
meet 2 of my gal friend,
we shop 1/2 day..... at jp
there got night market!!
got smelly doufu also!!! LOL
but i nv eat la.....
i too heaty le.... sorethroat....
and now ear swollen super duper pain.....
eat things also pain...... omg.......
well nvm..
still got another ear..... only cannot stand the pain...

keke.... my friend stay over last night.... :p
play comp whole day!!! she chiong CO2
siao siao de.... well nvm....

she nv bath slp on my bed :x
hahaha~

i think too much le......
*ouch* ear pain again...
can't slp well coz my ear too pain....

scary night mare...

today hor i dream abt him....
i dreamt that he is sick......
very very sick.... a dying man...
he come to me....
he tell me he didn't mean to hurt me....
tell me forget abt him and move on?
i still go back to him!!!!!!!!!
WTF!!!!!!!


why this happen????
i already let go of him....


ARG!
i really don't know...
maybe if there's something as brain wash....
it will be the best....
i will forget everything.....
forget what i have gone through....

i'm tired of telling myself
everything happen for a reason!!!

after going school...
we go bukit timah....
eat pizzahut.... yummy :x

.:you won't know the pain i had in me:.
.:because i hardly share the pain with people:.
.:you won't know the tears i shed:.
.:because i won't let you know i cried:.

.:for that i cry, your heart is pain:.
.:i didn't want any pity from you:.
.:for my pain, it won't go away no matter what:.
.:unless, i'm gonez, leave this world and to heaven:.

.:don't worried i didn't cry for him:.
.:my heart isn't pain for him:.
.:that's because i didn't know what is pain now:.
.:too numb to feel pain:.
.:too afraid to be in love:.



is this life?
i hope so.....
anyway thank you for being there....
i know i very willful at times...
i know i am very stubborn
i know i always put up a stronge front...
when i actually going crazy....

thanks for being understanding

tired la!!!!

today,
had a night mare....
what night mare ley... forget le.....

then i go down meet friends at orchard we are at takashimaya!!
doing projects.... *yawnz*
very tired...

we had some fun of cause....
then later we saw steven lim....
actually i dunno is him!!

he say hi to my friend i tat is her friend... LOL~
then when i turn back look at her....
i notice....
EH.... this guy here so familiar...... LOL
OH IS STEVEN LIM!!! *giggle*
so damn lucky sia.... out of so many people he stop her... *sight*
any way.....
he's english damn power!!!
he ask my friend "are you singapore? want trim eyebrow?"

comeon which era he from??????
ARE YOU SINGAPORE??? LOL

i ask my friend why she never tell him go back learn to speak english then offer he's service! :x
but then again true la....
who wan to talk to him ? *giggle*

on my way home i go return my VCD!!
the blair which i rental on the 12th!!

really hope i'm ok now ba.....
dunno y so depressed....
at worst point of my life also.... HaizZ

life is a hassle

omg...
i feel that life is a hassle....
the reason i also don't know
feel that it's like breaking down...
again today i cry....
feel like i'm a crying baby now....

when will i stand up again
and face the world
and all my trouble!! anything!!!
and ask them to fuck off from my life?

it's breaking down...
i always thought i had control over my own life
i can live the way i wanted it to be....
i'm so helpless now...

oh god...
am i having mental break down?
tell me what can i do?

chocolate craze!!!

yesterday.....
very sick... sleep whole day then do very evil thing to someone!!
omg i will hv my bad karma soon!!!
sorry to that person....

From last night till now keep want eat chocolate....
dunno why!!!
later muz go down buy my chocolate ice-cream~~ yea~~~
*yawnz*
very tired today....

but looking forward to tml ley....
Bowling day~~~ yeah~~~~~
you all envy anot? LOL

tree top walk

today wake up soooooooo damn early....
go to treetop walk at macritechi
very very "fun" LOL

i should have report in school at 8:30 but i 8:40 then i reach my school...
then i brought egg sandwhich to eat on bus and soyabean milk in school...

when we reach there we saw alot monkeys!! so cute!!
ok,
our trip started and keep on walking and walking it's about 10km (i heard that from someone) to reach our destination.... on the way it keep rain and rain and rain.... OMG!

the destination is just to cross a bridge!! very very high...
swing when we walk... it's fun!!
but this type of fun once is enough....

on our way back we are actually trying very very hard to enjoy ourself!! :p
because it's really tired....

imagine alot alot of stairs up and down you climb....
walk rockey path....
bridge...
forest....

anyway we make a joke out of ourself to have a good laugh ^^

back at starting point we saw monkeys shaking the leave!! cool~ ^^

we went to thomson road, the prata house at 11 plus about 12 to eat roti prata!! ^^

after i reach home it's already 1 plus...
after bathing....
i talk to someone... and that someone "hong" me to sleep!! (must mention coz that person very proud of it) LOL

*yawnz*
still very tired...

reseach at bugis

waa......
today meet my group mate at bugis to do research....
super tired...
we went to the bugis library
i'm like frog in a well, very shocked that the library there are sooooooooooooo big!!!

anyway we went to level 8 to do research on china supplier....
then the staff there ask what we looking for....
i wonder how come?
is it because we look so lost?
or too young to be there? *LOL*
they offer to help us anyway and we get the information we need...
move alot of books here and there ^^
then someone call me(muz mention this person!!! arbo he sure think i pig 10+ still sleeping :p)
we chat abit.... keke... then i go back research...

then we went to level 11....
singapore location corner!!!
to look for the green book *kekeke*
it's like the yellow book somehow useless......
there's school magazine there too!!!

after researching we went oppsite OG to eat....
eat the bak gu teh.... nice nice....
no use herb de... ^^
my 1st food in the whole day!!!
after eating we go shopping around and at 7 plus we go home....

reach home at 8+
feel abit tired....
still full now.....

*wonder what is that person doing*

harry potter

waaaaaa
he's cute.....
watch the movie le few day back... haha....

that day go out with friends then tio sabo cum di siao till very jialat....
think i be nun hao le....

relationship thing is not something for me.... haiz....
very tired...
i hor.....
dunno wat happen....
very tired these days....