co day...

ok.....
yesterday i did alot meditating...
*hiew*
very tired... felt like my energy was drained...

but i'm very happy!!
my god heard me~ yeah~

i went in conquer online and try to do the quest have some fun...
got alot evil pumkin which turn me into monster after i ate them!!
i wanted that clothes but it's hard to get.....

well i cried last night because i remember about him...
*sigh*

i slept at 6am in the morning~ hahahaha
watching the mei shi show.... yummy~
how i wish i was born in taiwan !!! bleh~

wake up at 2+ today.... hope today my mum cook nicer food...
i dun wan to eat curry again!!!

today 1st day of school....
such a tired day....
not in good mood...

got 2 spread i got and someone help me to interpret the meaning....

1st why he leave....

The Lovers cards suggests that perhaps he had trouble deciding the kind of woman he wants. The 3 of Pents, in this instance reinforces that for me. I think he's looking for someone older or who has more experience, I'm going with that rather than that he's looking for someone younger. I'm not sure how old you are, but I'm getting a young-ish vibe from you. The Ace of Cups in reverse just confirms my belief that you need to let him go. I think he has a tendency to sabotage relationships and he just can't seem to be happy with anyone.

2nd overview of our relationship...

The relationship is not an equal partnership, there is no balance here, some is doing all the giving and the other is doing all the taking. The King of Cups in reverse suggests that there may have been some sort of overindulgence going on. Someone would fight and then start drinking? This is a very emotional and volatile person, very easily upset and his feelings end ego get bruised by simple remarks. The Nine of Cups is not suggesting to me that things will get better, but instead is telling me that if you want to get back together with him, be careful what you wish for, because you just might get it. This relationship doesn't seem like a very healthy one.

maybe i should juz let go...

sleepless night

can't seem to fall asleep last night...
did a reading for myself....
a 3 card spread

i interpret as:
i meet someone who is playing mind game with me, out to cheat me..
he tricked my feeling and into doing things for me but i can't blame anyone
because i make the wrong decision. therefore now i left depressed and tired of eveything.

i still can't get over him...

i really miss him it's like i can't get over him.....
today he finally online...
didn't know what happen to him...
but i.... really miss him alot...
heartache again...
guess i will just go and use my tears to wash my face again....


he's the one that will make me fear for BGR...

he ruin my life

well he had dump me, now leaving me heartbroke and in tears now.
i can't reply if you ask me why i love him so much
what i can say is that love is really blind and cruel...
my studies are ruin so am my relationship with my family...
What actually have i done wrong to face such a thing?

All the promises he make are empty promise...
now he is going after other girl i think....
he told me when ones heart die you can't bring it back...

he told me he is sad too that we had broke up but i don't believe him
because if he care, he won't hurt me like this
maybe he is joking about asking me to lay down and sell my body and that hurts
and so on
......... on these topic........

he told me he is depressed..
how many of you guys will believe in it?

guys...
when they are going after girls can say the sweetest things we hope to hear...
and they wanted to dump us they can say the most cruel things we hope we never going to heard...

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