Saturday, January 21, 2006

learn to treasure things in life!!

been busy with projects!!!
had a strange dream about my granny that she actually recover
and celebrate the upcoming chinese new year with us...
then she suddenly tell us, she cannot make it....

she always tell us that....
i from young will reply her....
granny you will live a long life.... you will out do me!!!

she was sent to hospital again...
actually can discharge on monday
but....

anyway we are told on tuesday that....
her life will end anytime....

granny,
although you hate me alot when i was very young,
used to scold me, hit me and pull my hair all the way home....
didn't feed me when i was crying for milk....

there are times that you are nice to me too....
gave me fishball.... fishcake...
bring me to playground,
buy me sweets and cakes....
tell me bed time story about a monster eat naughty children...
tell me to study hard....
and alot alot....

when i heard that you wake up one mid-night to look for me,
thinking that i was sleeping with you....
you walk around the house....
i nearly cry.....

i really wanted to bring you out to eat....
anything you want!

even like that time just take a cab down to bukit batok...
juz to eat bo bo cha cha....

juz let it happen once more....

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

ARG

i'm only 20 year old what the expect me to do?
behave like i'm 30+ that mature?

my shoulder is small i can't carry budden!!!

i have my own trouble myself....
why are they so damn selfish....
they're trouble just push to problem away to each other....

sometimes stress is reali not something for me to handle ba....

maybe.....
just maybe.....
i'm not belong here, on earth....

i told her don't shout at that heartless people...
cool down and talk to them...
what if they unhappy that you shout at them
give you more trouble
how?

nothing wrong with this advice but she shouted at me again
can't they learn to control emotion like how they expect me to?

Sunday, January 01, 2006

boring new year eve

today ah sleep at 5 am...
wake up at 10am
went to hospital to see my granny....
haiz....

aiya their things i can't be bother...
say also angry....

then reach home at 6+

use comp till now lo....

yea 9 pm i will see channel 56 shutter~ nice~

anyway today i read this online very meaningful -->
(it's in chinese dunno can display chinese anot aiya nvm....)

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