feeling lost

what actually do i want?
i really don't know just wanted to be alone and sort things out

do i love him?
do i actually miss him?
do i really wanted to go back to him?
does he felt the same about me?

half of me was like i wanted to be with him
another half not.... because failed in the relationship once...

is this life?
feeling so lost so hopeless...

anyway my application to poly was unsucessful...
need to work and earn myself a living and enter pte sch to continue this lonely path of my own~

maybe i'm cheating myself that single is the best...
but i'm sure i'm sick and tired of relationship!!!!

life sucks

ok,
i really really wanted to comment life sucks!!
can i?

sunday i was staying out late with friends and chit chating
suddenly i saw someone siting oppsite us
never about the detail of that

monday my neighbour had heart attack
he's face all turn purplish...
and he couldn't make it....

yesterday i ws told another of my relative pass away...

what else can i say?

anyway on wednesday i went ot watch ultraviolet~
LOL how i wish i can be like her!!
vampire~ so skillful
so great
one woman can kill so many men!!

and her clothes, hair can change as and when she like!!

today headache alot

papa ask me to do a website blog for the single club..... lol
xanga cannot save skin so have to do one here....
later ask him to create account ba....

maybe later i juz copy and paste codes.....
won't be doing editing.....
because coding make me headache..... HAHA

i guess all coder will say this!

don't know why nose so itchy....
tml meeting papa and friends......
my friend wonder wat movie to watch......
i also dunno........ *faint*

watched ice age 2

actually wanted to watch hills have eyes,
but in the end we didn't...
we watch ice age instead

we reach there around 1 + pm....
and the show start at 4
around 2+ we went to eat....
the jap food not so nice -.-"
eat till quite full....

and they play car racing game till 4+


late when meeting my papa and friends
because when i woke up by de hua....
i was busy calling and sms-ing wen mei.....
help her to find reason to come out....

all didn't work....
haiz.........

she gd gal ba.......
but hor dun seem like.... :P

oh no i grow fat le

kinda sad to find out i grow fat already!!!
few of my 3/4 pants cannot wear le.....
i must slim down!!!!!!!
hahahaha but i will be lazy to do that.....

really miss my granny alot but this is life have to accept the fact right?
sometimes i feel single is the best!! :p
dun want talk about all these sad stuff...

just went to eat with my friends...
only eat abit......

very tired today....
last night didn't sleep at all... *yawnz*

will be sleeping early today......

wish myself.... sweet dream~