hope are like stars

towards the end of this semester

2010-01-31T17:43:00.005+08:00

yes!!! it's going to the end of this semester.

FYP presentation ended.
it's a bad one.....
pray hard we can pass this FYP as we put in alot effort.
skip lots of classes to complete it.

i pass my PP(professional profiling)~~~~
YES~~~~~~~

next to go is UT3
omg my nightmare.
no more skipping classes.

my head so pain these days... :(

my lenovo laptop is back... so far so good...
didn't use it for a long time. hope no more problem. ^^

this is what i wear on my fyp presentation~ ^^

sad alot spring cleaning to do....
why my room so many things!!!!!!
~>.<~

btw i lost all the links. formated laptop cannot get it back... :(

Stress Stress Stress

2010-01-14T20:12:00.002+08:00

waaaaa fyp so stress...

sch change alot.... new principal, new system...

miss 5 day school in the semester, will recieve letter from school...

now what also have to pay... :(

how to take it?

sch..... home..... friends.... r/s...... stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

life is all about tears.....

2009-09-07T03:31:00.002+08:00

hmm blogskin not working.... so i use the default ones.
will slowly add back all the links soon....
now i'm busy preparing for my wisdom tooth opt!! kind of scary.. hmm...

friends....
what are friends for?
for people to make use of?

well i have no idea....

here's a song i used to like a lot in the past till i lost my ex-best-friend...

graducation ( friends forever) by vitamin c

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excitedand we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1]
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

driver went toilet!

2009-08-20T20:13:00.000+08:00

hmm...
i always thought it only happen in comedy!!

as usual i took bus to school, wave the bus, drive stop the bus, he seem moody, no smile or anything (i'm not complaining, since even myself don't smile in the morning). suddenly he stop the bus outside a gas station and run all the way towards the gas station. after awhile he came running back and drive off as usual.

btw my java paper not doing very well... sight..
totally no mood to do my data communication paper today.
i must get over it, since there's 2 more paper to go!!

ops...
ok this school take exam (we call it understanding test, i call it exam because it's a 1 hour paper and stand more percentage out of the 3 understanding test) on computer!!

jy jy jy!!!

2009-07-16T14:46:00.002+08:00

yesterday went to westmall meet my secondary school friend, eileen.
we chat alot about our view and so on....
eileen planning to marry but still dunno when ah...
so.................
new year time i got 1 more ang pow to take lo~ ^^

i don't care i not going to marry so soon, so all my friends, u marry le must prepare a ang pow for me~~
LOL...........

waaa...
now thermometer in my school become our pass to enter school, no thermometer cannot enter.
suddenly so strict...

saturday going to meet my injured friend, dorin.
she injured her knee, sound very serious, swollen for 1 plus week need go hospital for future checkup.

making to the news again

2009-06-30T19:31:00.002+08:00

school going to make it on the news again...

70 h1n1 confirm cases...

well i believe the school is trying their best to cut down the spreading of h1n1.

they are giving out mask, if we, student, need extra protection we can take it from the office.
they issue Leave of Absent(LOA) to students & staff who come into contact with h1n1 confirm cases.

even so... student who are sick, still come to school because of daily grades...
although we have to declare about our health condition online, they lie about it.
so... what's the point of that online declaration?

closing school doesn't help, since it's spreading in the community, even when the school re-open, people might bring it back to school again.

but...

the feeling...
don't know how to explain..

is like we come to a split path and know that the path on right has alot of trap but unsure the exact spot where the trap lies, i'm sure non of us will take that path right?

sighz...

wish me luck~
i don't want home quarantine...
i don't want h1n1...
i don't want e-learning....

something i ponder on

2009-06-25T00:04:00.002+08:00

something i ponder on...

y bird virus call bird flu?

y cow virus call mad cow?

y pig virus call (hmm 4get the name)?

y cannot call everything.... mad mad mad?

e.g. mad bird, mad pig, mad cow.....

isn't that better for us to remember the name?

so the formally swine flu ( now known as Influenza A virus subtype H1N1) can name as mad all in 1?

since what i read online is

h1n1 in Republic Polytechnic

2009-06-24T18:19:00.005+08:00

omg so it's confirmed cases....
Republic had 2 h1n1 cases....

the school only close down 3 classes...

email we recieved on monday(22/06/09).........

Dear Staff and Students,

Rumours have been circulating that W1 and W3 have been closed owing to the presence of the H1N1 virus at RP. There is no truth in these rumours. No PODs have been quarantined or closed, and it is business as usual in RP, until further notice.

At this point in time, two students have been identified to have the flu virus. Please note that the affected students were not in campus over the weekend and today (Monday, 22 June 09).
We would like to assure everyone that RP has taken immediate steps and activated the containment procedures.

The students’ classmates have been asked to go to the Communicable Disease Centre for further checks.

There is no need for alarm. Please remain calm and vigilant. If you are feeling unwell, please be socially responsible and stay home and monitor your health. Please consult a doctor if you are in doubt.

We are monitoring the situation closely, and will keep you all regularly posted.

Students who are under the quarantine order are required to stay home, and continue with their daily learning activities through the Internet by logging into LEO. Following are the generic instructions for the students:
 Use the Forum in LEO or any other viable means to communicate with the Facilitator and other classmates.
 No student teams will be formed in the quarantined classes.
 The class facilitator is expected to inform all affected students how to contact him/her.

 The facilitator will assign a suitable RJ question appropriate for the learning situation.
 Students are expected to submit daily a personally completed Worksheet, quiz and RJ.
 No Daily Grade shall be awarded for the quarantined students. Appropriate measures will be implemented by the management to compensate in fairness for such missing Daily Grades when computing the final Module Grade.

Please contact your facilitators or Programme Chair for any clarification regarding the alternate learning arrangements. For all other matters you may contact Help-Flu.

email recieved on tuesday(23/06/09)....

Dear Staff / Students,
1. Students belonging to the following classes have been asked to be quarantined at home for a period of seven days: W15B, W15L, W36B.
1. The 3 classrooms have been cleaned and locked up.
2. All students and staff who have had contact with students from the abovementioned classes, are requested to inform the Emergency Preparedness Team immediately via help-flu@rp.sg.
3. We will initiate a temperature taking exercise tomorrow (24 June 09). Staff and students are to record their temperature readings online, once in the morning and once in the afternoon.
4. The list of affected countries no include the following : USA, Mexico, Canada, Chile, UK, Australia, Argentina, Japan, Thailand, Spain, Philippines, Panama, Hong Kong, Dominican Republic & Indonesia.
5. We wish to co-ordinate all responses, so please send in your queries and concerns to help-flu@rp.sg, and not to individual email addresses.

what i'm worried is.....

what if our classmate took the same bus with any of them(confirmed cases classmate) or took the bus that they taken, had the bus clean up before we took it?

what if we took same lift with those that came into contact with them(confirmed cases classmate)?

they sure have friends that is not in those classes and get into contact with them?

let's take a break....

my bear bear is ready for h1n1 :p

i got a mean classmate

2009-06-22T21:51:00.002+08:00

today coding(java) again...
actually don't want to go school...

we heard that there's h1n1 cases in RP....
alot students were sent home...

but email said only some sent home...
no idea how true is it...

then my classmate...
very bad and mean...

we keep joke that we should go there walk walk and inform the teacher ( which we call facililator or faci in short), he email the school so we can go back early.

then this classmate of mine actually say if someone die from h1n1, den we will have our holiday.. -.-"

that is nothing compare to what he say later...
he tell the teacher that he just choose the best kid out, the rest send to orhanage,
so he he (refer to the teacher), won't be so poor. can save $.

i don't know why he said such thing...
izzit due to stress from coding, make him go crazy?

all i know is....... he's mean!!!

flyer trip

2009-06-19T23:30:00.005+08:00

i decide to break into another post...

my trip to singapore flyer

there some sort of promotion price, the promotion's over now... so yea...

view on the flyer:

know why i look so serious? i looking for the location... where is malaysia, changi airport and so on... but the weather not that good i can't find them... :(

the cars below look like ants from the view on flyer :X

too long no update...

2009-06-19T22:45:00.007+08:00

omg....
so long nv update i dunno where and how to start ley...

these missing period.. nothing much changed....

ok... start with my genting trip few mth back...

genting very cooling and nice...
people go there gamble i go there enjoy the weather!!
plus weather so hot now!!
Super miss the weather there..... it's like in air-con room everywhere you go...
mist surround you... hmmm...

pictures speak better....

and we are in the middle of the mist... nice right???

at 1st i wonder genting.... chinese is call yun ting (means above cloud)...
is that true?
well seeing is believing...

i sound so noob...
hahaha.....
but!!! really is above cloud!!! really!!!

i keep take the photo at same spot like some idiot... LOL
sorry la.. i'm some moutain turtle ma... :p

next day we went to theme park...
not that nice... since that time we went alot things under repair... :(

i very stupid also...
even genting so cold i still keep bath and bath...
till the last time i catch cold... shaking in cold till i fall asleep... lol!!!!

photo that show mist coming...

1 more week to holiday

2009-01-18T21:55:00.002+08:00

yeaaaa.......... 1 more week to school holiday!!

isn't it funny?
heard that we going to have written test/examination.
our school start at 9+ now...

3rd year our sch start at 10...
so there's no reason we will be late!
arggg... pp soon... fyp soon...
headache ah~
how can i find till teammate?
god pls help me...

sad sad...

2009-01-06T13:20:00.002+08:00

2nd day in sch after 3 week holiday, so tired...
mental stress........
Monday java, Tuesday PHP!!!!
two day in a row codings!!!!
mad le mad le.......
java kills my brain cells....

so long didn't update...
sian... will find time to update tomorrow maybe since tomorrow no school...
YEA~~~~

stupid php faci!!

2008-11-11T00:55:00.001+08:00

damn it!!!!!!!

i ask him why i keep give me C, do work also C don't do work also C...
he aim me lo, during 3rd meeting ask me alot questions, still sae what " you wanted a good grades so u better ans me" f u la......

i continue the work from my friend lo and debug them de lo!!! BB la~ go le dun come back~

holiday is near~~

2008-10-20T02:03:00.003+08:00

yes yes!!!!!!!!!!
holiday is near!!
6-7 week of schooling finally it's HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

here i come kushinbo~~ :p

woo, my brother drunk that day, the sound of alcohol remind me of the good old days in secondary!!

S repeat her o level and unlucky of her to come our class for repeat. why do i say unlucky of her? because our maths teacher is crazy!!!! i'm serious on that, he's way too strict, throw parent letter on floor!!!

due to the stress S recieve from the all the teacher, she gone crazy too!!

She actually suggest to drink beer in school uniform outside of school!! ok ok, i'll skip the rest jump straight to my point!! she drunk!!! and start to laugh non stop, talk alot crap!!!

so i drag her to find other friend and take her away from school area, later on i heard from other friends, she torn her books and run about screaming, shouting all over the shopping mall near one of the girl house ( 1 of the girl that drag her away).

The end~

she kind of lucky, if i throw her outside the sch! cannot imagine what will happen! :P

tml a new school semester

2008-09-04T01:10:00.003+08:00

omg omg, my school so high tech!!!
ok ok, i admit i mountain turtle!! haha

my school actually sms me my class and when the school start but don't have the time!!

omg, i forget again what time school start??

by the way last time they didn't have such function, they only email us.( which i never check at all, which kind soul can help me delete my school email? it's super overload now i guess because i about 2 month didn't load in?)

tomorrow new classmate, so worried.
pray hard that i can straigh find a new friend~ :p

it's late now, must go sleep soon if not tomorrow cannot wake up for school! :p

wa lau tell you all something, the more i read, the more depress i can get. so conclusion is!!!!!

tada~
don't research or read anything!!! live with being stupid~
i'm sure i will failed my studies all D grades if i really do that!! a new river will formed by my tears if that happen~ hohoho~

i know i sound silly~ trying to cheer myself up ^^

went to it fair (comex)

2008-09-01T15:22:00.002+08:00

yesterday went to comex with hui and maine plus dorin who left 1/2 way, this is what dorin and me come to conclusion, 'singapore had too much people'

when we took train from bugis ( there already alot people!!) to city hall on every where people!!! people mountain people sea ( ren shan ren hai) i thought i'm sardine fish packed in a can!

and now who say singapore don't have enough people? :x

haha my description sound abit over....

that hui hui so bad, don't like her anymore! only remind me that i wanted to eat lor mee after i brought steamed soup!! :~(

my lor mee... when will i eat you?
maybe next year ba~
like i been telling people i wanted to swim for 3-4 years i think and i have not even step into swimming pool till now!! hahahaha

if life is just a dream....

2008-08-28T12:45:00.004+08:00

if life is just a dream, can anyone please wake me up?

blogger changed the look?
too long didn't login.

school going to start soon, shall i look forward to it?
the feeling very strange...

1 whole semester not in school, maybe will feel strange cause heard that the school changed alot. so worried, i going to stay in school for 1 more semester after all my friends graduate. sad....

oh ya hor, on 21st of aug we ( fen, hui and me) went to rayner bday party at aloha chalet~
maine reach later lo around 7+pm, den we all hide in the room to chat, because we don't want to feed te mosquito.

something weird happen.... hahahaha~
something that creepy us out.

2008-08-27T15:36:00.000+08:00

eh ok la this is a date back post....

i utterly upset with fujitsu, send in about a problem with my laptop (power cut again!! 2nd time lo, 1st time i already request full check and i send in full set which include adapter, batt within 1st year of warranty) and now same problem come back which is only 2 mth diff ? didn't know got problem cause i keep use with batt and i trust what they say is that they settle the problem only motherboard faulty!!

they have the gut to tell me on 2nd visit that it's user fault the problem lies with my adapter!!! because i keep plug in and pull out the ac adapter which spolit the ac jack port!!!

they super pro lo...
lucky on 17th aug send into HQ, they repair it for me since i still had warranty!!
if not i will be pissed off and send email to their in-charge. not that i'm making a big fuss about it.

can you imagine u pay for the damn warranty and you have to pay for repair while others didn't buy the warranty they repair for free? so unfair!
plus the reason they told me is like the LCD crack and i told them my LCD crack by itself!!

can you accept that reason if you are the techincian?
btw they didn't even send in for the people inside to check and dare to tell me it's user fault!!!

and i only recieve a sms tell me to collect today!!
other than that nothing else, i can understand they are very busy but shouldn't they at least tell me when i can get back, school starting and i don't know when i can get back my laptop. they feeling had to explain.. :(

still piss me off when i think about this incident

so lazy to update

2008-07-24T20:45:00.004+08:00

i'm so lazy to update my blog!! :x

thanks everyone for the presents and cake... hahahahha~

saturday going watch movie with dorin n rena lo....
dunno will last min cancel again!! :p
maybe will date them to eat sushi? or steamboat? LOL
see 1st la....

steph damn notti...
everyone tell u dun be so stubborn le u dun listen...
now keep worried u suay le lo... see~
dun everything also link to that can le... ok?

oh ya hor...
that day went aijisan with maine, hui n fen.
to celebrate my bday.. ohooh...
hui so notti steal my ds's *ahem* thing.... shhh... dun mention wat is that la~
anyway hor that softbone ramen not bad ley.... but fen's vocano 1 chili nice~ yummy~~
the white fish also nice... lalala~

will eat again someday...

today i'm a "new born baby" so very naggy~~ HAHAHA~~
you know just born alot crap to talk about? :x

matsumatsuri coming again.... shall i go?
i wanna go but no hair...

my bday wish this year~
EVERYONE CUT BOTAK LIKE ME~ :P

really tired le...

2008-07-01T15:03:00.004+08:00

i'm so tired....

is more like tired of living ba....

don't wish to go in detail for the causes that make me feel this way...

maybe i shall learn from that guy that sell he's life... haha :X

finally... it's the end...!!!

2008-06-07T02:18:00.002+08:00

yeaaa~~~
so everything ended?
let's hope so...

today is not a good day for me...
yucks... i vomit today...
kind of sad cos still feel so sick now... >.<

i realise that my memories getting worst...
keep trying to think what is the pw for this and that..
what more when i go withdraw my cash from atm... i'm scared...
worried i key in wrong pw!!! haha

let's imagine...
if i key in wrong pw 3 times till the bank took my card, the expression i will have!! HAHA...

let's pray that this super ultra bad memory won't affect my studies(since research shown that it affect learning and memories) went i go back to school and most importantly won't affect my daily life!!!

8 more days to go

2008-05-23T20:45:00.002+08:00

YES!!!!

only 8 more days to go...
so my head very pain now... no strength now...
keep giddy and wanted to vomit...

so... my plan had ruin...
but i still believe life is full of hope and it's beautiful ( ok i con myself into believing that...)

but 8 more days to go.....
it's a good good news....
can't help it but everyday count down... HAHA

bored...

2008-04-28T20:03:00.002+08:00

i wan eat chili!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

some food w/o chili taste so funny.... -.-"

by the way now i become vegetarain ( 1/2 ba onli eat abit fish)

waaaaaaaaaaa...

sad........

my head so pain now... eeeeeeeee................

mother day, i'm going eat STEAMBOAT!!!! ( okay, this is in my dream... haha)

25 day more to go.... yes~~~~

days during treatment

2008-04-25T20:17:00.002+08:00

waa
the treatment suck....

make my tongue and throat pain....

drink cooling tea + water till so full everyday >.<

i wonder will it kill too much of my brain cells?

worried that i might be super stupid since i'm already so stupid now :x
my memory also not working now... >.<
maybe it's a good time people can come bully me.. HAHA
50-50 i won't be able to remember :X

ds no nice game to play de le.... so sian....

finally...
my head can rest 2 day~~ ^^
lalala....
2 day 2 day.....
can enjoy my time lo~
but don't think can go out walk walk, cause i still have the problem of losing balance and giddy... *sigh*

life really so weak ah...
so my friends... for those who are health...
TREASURE YOUR LIFE!!!

because during my treatment i saw people struggling to live on, so am i...

If you are very sick(those life threatening illness) and wanted to die, maybe others can understand but if you are healthy and able to move around yet you wanted to commit suicide when you face some obstacles in life it's hard for others to understand the reason of you doing it.

my thoughts

2008-04-20T02:23:00.002+08:00

2 more day..... no no... is 1 day more...

my greatest fear coming....

ok let's say...

if you are only giving 2 choice to die...

drown and die or leap off from building...

which will you choose?

if you must choose 1 out of this 2 choice....

although drowning is a slower proccess of dying compare to jump of the building for both method people still can save you but you will suffer with side effect...

but why?
why people make choice for me...

can i have a third choice? :(

i hope that day won't come...

oh god.... please.... make time move slower....

no sch days...

2008-04-18T22:04:00.004+08:00

how does it feel that you are not able to go out!! :(

when i can go out i feel like staying at home but now how i wish to go out and play till like there's no tomorrow... i'm weird isn;t it?

oh yea, finally school approve my defer. is this a good news after all the bad news?
it's weird to say this but i kind of miss school.

today....
no headache...
the surgery wound only hurts abit due to abit swelling...
I lose balance again, lucky just once.

the treatment day is coming, i really scare of it...

very worried... can i don't do it?

people keep tell me be stronge be stronge, you control your own life...

but the pain, fear and so on is so hard to discrible...

is life really in my hand? something i can control??

i try so hard to be stronge, i force myself off bed taking the risk that i will fall down and have to re-stitch back the openning.

no matter how stronge my will power can be, there still a time that i will break down and cry.

when i heard from others about this whole incident, it make me cry...

this is something i asked myself 101 time: why me?

maybe this is fate...

to all my dear friends, this maybe hard for me to tell you all...

when i go for treatment, i might have super bad memories( worst then my stm now), i might not be able to laugh with you all, might not be able to join any of you for outing.

i might be very weak, not able to answer any call, reply sms...
but with support from you guys, i will try to bear with all the pain, i will hang on..

remember to give me lots of love and hugs, maybe some kisses from certain friends~(hope this sentence sound more cheerful).

thanks alot.. and lots of love~

defer of sch

2008-04-04T17:44:00.002+08:00

so yea....

i'm gonna defer my school...

how i wish i'm able to study and grad together with my friends :(

school holiday admin into hospital for brain operation....
end up in HD...

i insist of removing all tube, so i can walk around and eat...
so i can go home earlier...

when i'm discharge i thought everything is over, but the worst news had come...

whatever strong will power i had...
i still become nothing...

zero will power...

let's hope my small small will power can help me through it...

wordless

2008-03-02T01:43:00.002+08:00

i'm wordless,

i feel that i'm really a dumb dumb~

it hurts alot!!!

no wonder there's a chinese saying, ten finger are connected to heart(shi zhi lian xin). i totally agree to it!!

i injure my finger without noticing and never take care of it, which result in.... infection!!! bm say that it's infection....

the wound so near to nail, anyway it's dry now but still hurts alot....

if i had to use words to express the pain... maybe the best word is "ouch".

bm hor so moody these days and she sae alot scary stuff.... >.<

finally got back my laptop

2008-01-24T15:38:00.000+08:00

Finally i got back my laptop.... after 2 weeks plus....
to be exact it's 15 days!!!
omg i miss my laptop alot!!!!
my laptop got scratches.... :(

today there's a career in my school!!! i saw alot navy guys and air force things!!!
the uniform so handsome!!!! can i sign in just for the uniform!!!!

so sleepy these days!! i want to sleep i want to sleep!!!!
i going to update my wishlist ley.... hahahaha......

i tot i near to my dream of buying my "toy" but yesterday i used them on other things... sad...

so let's re-start again...

laptop down

2008-01-13T14:04:00.000+08:00

sad.....

my laptop down for 6 days le...
in RP hor without laptop is like so helpless, like handicap like that.
i even try to go school soooooooooooooo early to rent but don't have!!!

ARG....

They say my laptop's motherboard spolit, let's see how long will they take to repair~ i told them i need my laptop back before thursday le.... will they be done by then?

oh ya i borrow till a laptop le ley... but cannot login to the window got what domain error.... what password error.... funny....

sorry people.... i know for the past 3 week you all hard to find me...
i juz trying to straighten some thinking and so on ah....

got alot of things for me to think about....
my doc things.... sch.... and so on and on...
i think 3 week le... haben come out with solution...
think my brain spolit le~ hahahhaa

chinese new year coming le~ once again....
I cannot celebrate!! maybe i go work ba... at least got pay ley... :P
then i go buy psp? wii? or nds lite?
but hor nds lite seem to have newer version....

busy busy

2007-12-10T00:26:00.000+08:00

sad sad sad....

i missed 2 of my UT.
seem to be same subject!! worst....

i tried to sleep early but in vain... what else can i do? :(

shall i tell my doctor about feeling exhausted?

i think better not, wait send me to do a lot of tests again. :x

this week will be busy again...

1 + round more UT to go!!

monday maybe going buy card together with fen and see tibits
tuesday got appointment and UT.
wednesday if not tired study for UT.
thursday ( got UT) need to research on school.
Friday play host to osaka student.

happy happy~
holiday coming~ 3 week holiday~~

count down : 5 more day

by the way, friday's teacher kowai ne.

she seem to have high expectation from us, really high expectation.
she so hyper... too hyper till it give me creep. =x

although holiday coming but i abit sad...
after spending 11 weeks for now..
i seem to imagine changing of class...

5 more schooling week and we going to change class again...

To bread, kaya and so on...
i will go in ms disturb you all when my holiday come~ hahahaha
sorry so long didn't go in... gomen ne...

emo post....

2007-11-29T20:42:00.000+08:00

so tired these days,
fall asleep when the others presenting, kinda rude ley...
sorry guys...

dec 19th coming le....

aiyo going to cry when i think about it, feel so guilty was busy with final year project so can't visit my grandma after she changed hospital to somewhere in the east.

dec 19th the day she fall down.

sleep and didn't hear grandma fall down, nvm lor...
don't know what to do, nvm...
her mouth got white foam and still mop the floor!

hello...
IC is with you!
ambulance cannot leave w/o you!

all these still ok...
because the other are worst!!!!!!! WORST!!!

around chinese new year, they actually say this "tell your grandma want to die don't die now, no people will come."

after chinese new year they say "tell her if want to leave can leave now" and
keep quarrel about the hospital fees whenever they go visit her...you people borrow a lot of $ from her haven't return lo.

they do all these in front of her!!

I'm going to talk about this every year.... till i die!!!!

you people better regert before you die, if not you might burn in hell, if there's a hell.

~~xmas~~ is a day for all of my life, we celebrate her bday around this date.

i want to eat steamboat!!

2007-11-19T15:49:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO EAT STEAMBOAT!!!!

HELLO!!! EAT AT BUGIS!! DAMN IT.... i don't care!!!

BM jahat!!!!
BM es malo!!!

if u dun wan eat there u will be baka le....
hahahaha~ so remember 25th dec!!
eat with xiao qiang, kenny, u and me la~
the more the merrier~ but dun call too many people... later i no need eat le...
coz all eat faster compare to me ley.

oh ya

today bad day...
bad bad day....

make me no time do ppt!!!!

NO TIME LO.... CAN YOU IMAGINE!!!

EEEEEEE
I HATE IT!!!

maybe if doing something i like still better but i'm not doing something i like!!
doing "COSPLAY" !!!

actually not really is cosplay la it's something like short skit.

no people respond to the event so our cca make us, MAKE US!!!, join!!!!

so many event coming up everyday stay back for meeting, soon school become my second home.

the hero gala preview

2007-11-15T14:24:00.000+08:00

Went to watch the hero gala on 13th nov 2100
the show not bad quite funny~~ ^^
but scary..... haha....
because... it's a tuesday and the show start at 9pm end at 11+ pm!!!
there sch next day!!!

9am school!!!!

i don't like the idea of going home so late during week days. it's kind of scary that you migh miss your bus or train!!

i got E for a test!!!! :~(

i gonna find a p/t job save up to 3k before march! :p

bad luck is with me...

2007-10-27T01:16:00.000+08:00

seriously bad luck is with me....

can you imagine, when you're late and you take that taking train will be faster.
but in the end it's not at all? i'm sort of trapped inside that damn station for 10+ min!!!! it's raining..... i didn't bring umbrella with me... and they need tell us to wait 10 min....

this is what i wanted to complaint on :p

tml then i upload photos.....

attend some wei qi, Igo or Go in Japanese (Kanji: 囲碁 or 碁). it's fun~~

went to visit my great grandma ( my mum side), she had a bad fall, in hospital. on the way i saw something... hmmm shall i sae funny? someone car stuck in the middle of road...

aiyo dunno how to explain... ask me i show u photo!!! :p

I want to eat at ichiban sushi!!! their set meal!!!

i want i want i want ( trying to hint, fen and hui~ hahahaha)

so remember ok, next tuesday or whatever, 4:40 causeway!!

i will tell my teacher i got important things to attend!! LOL

guess what i see?

2007-10-14T19:13:00.001+08:00

hey hey...

guess what i see.....

when i saw that i super hyper~~~~

HAHAHAHA.....

i saw a guy with spikey hair~~~
ehh not really is spikey ley...
more to punk....
there's only hair in middle...
then hair standing de....
1 row to the back... got 5 stick?
dunno how to explain.... >.<

so long ley..... when he turn he's head... he's hair hit the guy sit beside him...
that guy have to paste the face onto the window.... hahhaha :x

anyway went to ajitei with maine, karlynn, kim... to celebrate kimmmy birthday...
food there super nice~~~

yummy.... :p

i miss you~~

2007-10-07T21:05:00.000+08:00

ok i got nothing better to do...

so this is a emo post~ :p

i miss my granny....

再也不能在这世界上找到你的踪影....

dear granny...

i had already accept the fact that you're gone but.....

i still miss you, still want to cry when i think about you...

sound so crappy isn't it?

everything i saw make me link it back to you...

if cause i know that you want me to live one...

life is like this isn't it what you always tell me?

i promise you i will study hard....

proof to that person that i'm not stupid!!

please look after me in heaven,

i will join you want i die~

in the meantime i will enjoy my life~

what's an rp?

2007-10-04T22:10:00.000+08:00

hmm....

when to pastamania with Y...
the manager ask are we from rp( as we have 10% discount). . .
the cashier reply is. . .

what's an rp?

ok 101 times that we will heard this question.....

rp = royal plaza
rp= role-playing( game)
Rp=Repurchase agreement
rp=Reservation price
.
.
.
.

last of all. . .
RP= republic polytechnic....

someone give out a flyer near school's exist. . .

a restaurant in our school offering a 4 pax meal.
S$98+++++

yes it's $98++++

so sleepy today. . . .
and i was late for class..... :(

tomorrow will be a better day?

crap

2007-10-02T12:03:00.000+08:00

bored!!!

i'm so lousy....
ahhhh

sew button poke till own hand.... rubbish....
HAA HAA

aiyo so boring...
today maths so difficult....

lucky my team didn't need to present, we role play~~~~

funny right?

math.... role-play....

can't see the link?

zhen keep talk to sio wor...
jy jy jy~ :p

hmm...
good luck to fen, she went to taiwan~ enjoy~~~~~
remember kidnap *ahem* *ahem* for us~

i hate school...

2007-10-01T18:48:00.000+08:00

i don;t like school

rj so hard today.... :(

today faci scold us, say that we didn't listen to presentation.
make me sad.... coz he seem to aim me ley...
but i agree i in wrong also la,
didn't really listen tot he presentation....

but really la he give us the smirk smile!!!

did i think too much???

ok ok have to forget about this...

next week aim for A~~~

tommorrow will be a better day~

tired day

2007-09-30T18:41:00.000+08:00

hmmm....
today so sleepy, talk to one of the japanese exchange student last night
till 3+am.

good chance to learn japanese~ lalalala

Seriously, I think that singapore guys need to change la!!!
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX ( censored)
ok ok, i'll be fair~
the girls really pretty too, we shall learn from them~~ ^^

omg.... bad karma coming again!!
going to eat me up with all my evil deed!!!!

coming of bad karma....

hahahaha~ this prove cannot be so bitchy~
i bitch about my school and this is what happen!!

now,
RP = Royal Plaza
ok?

HaaHaa

photo of the event....

look at the difference of japanese students(they are from KTC) and us (singapore students)? what's the first things come to mind?
.
.
.
.
.
my 1st thought is....... woah.... so formal...
and we..... XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (censored, i don't want bad karma. haha)
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.
.

time for dinner...

more to come...

all in one post part 3

2007-09-30T01:38:00.000+08:00

i think bad karma is coming to me....
it's very near.... so near....
i couldn't breath...

haha i trying make this like a horror entry~ hahaha

hyper mood?
sorry i;m not... tired la....

T I R E D!!!

i better stop bitching about people or else bad karma really come...

all in one post part 2

2007-09-30T01:33:00.000+08:00

here is part 2
sorry ah, it's very random.

i miss W24G,
i really miss them. the happy times we are together.

1st day of of school is horrible!
step into the class, when you don't know everyone, we all know the rp system is like. really scary.

i saw fazilah, i thought i step into wrong class...
and i nearly turn and walk away~ HAAHAA

seriously i think my blur illness haven't cure!!!
i submit rj but submit half of it only!!
i nearly walk into the wrong toilet.....
and the list go on la~

W35J still not that bad la....
at least we keep laugh in class...
not sure will we be as close as w24g

more to come....

all in one post part 1

2007-09-30T01:24:00.000+08:00

another all in one post~ part 1
sorry all, i'm lazy~ HAAHAA
got people complaint le... so... i update la...

Kitakyushu National College of Technology students came to rp!!
and what is rp?
RP = Royal Plaza~ haahaa
if you believe la...

kitakyushu is a town in japan, small town, i think.
we spend 2 hour with them, intro rp to them and they intro their place and school to us.pretty cool they have 1000 student, 800 male and 200 female.

after that they try out our games~
then we sit in a format, e.g. 1 rp student 1 japan student, 1 rp student 1 japan student..... this go on and on...

thanks sio for the photo, gonna update another day~

super suay again

2007-09-07T03:23:00.000+08:00

once again i'm down on my luck...

Just send my lap top to service centre for repair and now i'm fixing my desk top.
my desk top is old alright.. but it didn't have to crash(keep say missing file) after window update am i right? i can't even go into window!!

If my desk top can communicate, i'm gonna tell her this
"hello, you're not a p2 damn it you're a p4(should be i forgot)!!!!! "

you stupid hal.dll file i will remember you till i die!!!

My stupid desktop crash at 11pm!!! and a computer idiot who is studying IT course (hard to believe, i can't believe myself too...) is fixing the computer herself. finally after few hour of struggle... i manage... to just settle the wireless crap...

I remember that stupid mistake i make last time, i did install sound card this time round!! i did it myself ok?

So now you better stop saying that i'm a computer idiot, i just sucks at it! so what if you know how to put ram~ nah~ no much better ok?

i start to hate myself... for being computer idiot.... :(
i gonna pray that i can fix all before day break...
let's hope so....

2007-08-17T13:08:00.000+08:00

too lazy to post everyday
so i'll combine everything in this post...

sci faci miss someone......
keep ask about her..
omg omg...
too much questions about her...

kunny tio that photoalbum virus....
the reasons is funny hahahaha
he say he's hand itchy go and accept and that he's friend say that in the zip there's nude photo. so he open it...

when i went to rebond hair and complaint about RP!!!!
there's a faci there!!

she told me, hmmm you mean 6th p boring?
can you imagine how shock i am?
lucky i only complaint it's boring to listen to so many presentation and not about some faci!! hahaha...

she told me her name is emXXX XXX
cannot type out whole name

i feel i look like monster after the rebonding...

today maths so hard....
can i change school? HAHA

let's wish hui hui all the best for her exam....

craps

2007-08-05T01:59:00.000+08:00

school is crappy....

life is crappy..

Fcuk, why ????

damn it......

everything just sucks isn't it?

there are things i wish to forget yet i didn't
there are things i wanted to remember yet i forget.

life just like a game
.
.
.
when will i gameover...>:(

blood is salty...

2007-08-01T20:46:00.000+08:00

blood is salty..... yucks...

Something happen today, remind me of that time i bit my own lips and it bleed non stop. That's how taste my own blood.
I saw something at yesterday 6th P. how cool. holiday coming which means we going to change class soon. these days so stressful. >.<
jade intro a game call perfect world... seem nice sia. so are you guys going to play that game?

happy early bday to QSW~~~ :p

going on of the list...

2007-07-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

been busy with school so i won't update daily...

.... my mouse spolit....
in a funny way... the left click not working... the rest working well...
oh fine....

got a mouse from my bro, since he had extra mouse...
save money.... hahaha~ :p

my birthday cake~~~

and my bday present~

thanks to fen, SherMaine, hui, min min and mama kim :x

*muack* lots of love~~

we forgot to take photos.... >.<

thanks to CherMaine n' syirah for the tarts and cake ( although i didn't eat the cake)

and the others....

oh 1 more important person......

stephy ang!!!! she might read this if i didn't mention her she might get jealous~~ :p

this class currently i'm in is fun, they are a group of people that can hang out with...

but we going to change class soon....

define of what s unluck

2007-07-24T10:43:00.000+08:00

forget to update my blog these days,
let me define what is bad luck... really down on luck...

1st: step till shit..... and i mean dog's shit.
2nd: step till things and cut your leg.
3rd: bring calculator to school for test and it run out of battery.
4th: someone vomit in train, and some of are on your leg and shoes.

i hope the list won't go on...

a msg to Shermaine, hui hui and fen:
my birthday wish this year is that we all get a bf ( i wanted to exclude myself but to be fair.... ).

suay suay suay day

2007-07-19T23:09:00.000+08:00

today super bad luck....
science ut so hard and i bring calculator but no batt.... :(
ARG.......

stupid stupid stupid.....

hahahaha

and someone tell me she don't want go school tml..... then i will start to pity myself.... haha...

new bg song

2007-07-10T23:29:00.000+08:00

i changed my song.... abit funny two post today...
this song is for someone or few body... because of some reasons....
i like this songs too... nice~~~
anyway here's the lyric

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair

And this is how it feels

1 - As we go onWe remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Repeat 1
La, la, la, la…
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la…
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
Repeat 1 (3x)

random photo post

2007-07-10T21:51:00.000+08:00

random photo post for the day.....
there seem to have a problem with my post yesterday..... so far i only notice that the date isn't shown....

is this the sun or?????
the ans is........ it's moon just look at the quality of the photo.... LOL
nightmode sucks with my hp camera.. :p
but it's nice view isn't it?

a photo took an hour after she's born.... ok now she's 1 month old...
anyway congratz to my cousin, your baby girl sooooo cute....

the W2.... the block that i'm from.... but what's the white thing on the "2" ?
no idea.....

no matter how you look it's still the same.... as in this degree or after a 180 degree turn.

my beautiful school... hahaha.... it's nice in the photo...
but.... it's not when u are standing there.... hahaha

it's one of my present from the past... still as clean as it is....
hey you look i did take care of it ok? :p

rp sucks

2007-07-10T00:25:00.000+08:00

shit..... school sucks yes school sucks...........!!!!!!!!!!
keep test test test....

rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks
rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks
rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks
rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks rp sucks

lol~~~
ok ok actually it's school sucks....
so moody these days....... coz of.........
don;t want mention it here that person that XXXXX and XXXXX might read my blog!! so..... i write in book diary then.... HAHAHA.....

funny me

2007-07-02T21:11:00.000+08:00

isn't it funny or even shameful to tell people that you cry when you read your own blog?

i cry when i read mine, when i read all about the stuff i blog about my grandmother.
at times when i think about her i couldn't cry, not because of what, it's because the pain is so geat that tears can't even help.

the greatest pain in the world isn't about feeling pain yet you put up a smile it's that you feel so hurt yet there's isn;t any tears. in simple form, wanted to cry but no tears.

why am i so emotion today?

below my block there's a funeral...
chanting every night...

remind me of my grandmother...

how do we actually define pain?
pppppppaaaaiiiinnnnnnn

does memories really stay forever?
will i forget about this pain one day?
as there's a saying time heal all wound...

about hui....

2007-06-25T21:32:00.000+08:00

hmm funny i tot i update on blog le but didn't appear....
nvm forget it man...

hui!!!
i noe u reading this i disappointed in u ley...
following are the reasons...

1: u wanna come rp coz of ice cream and not me...
2: u didn't come in the end...
3: u promise about the tarot reading but didn't ( cheat my feeling )
4: i forget...

with all these reasons...
i still love u as friend la so relax... hahahaha

so come rp tml eh....
u dun come i... i...
dunno la.... i will plan when the time had come... :p

someone so crazy about an ice cream...

2007-06-20T09:45:00.000+08:00

waaaa
hui hui say she coming rp later to buy a ice cream...
the twister.... hard to find outside...
let's see will she really come anot....

in school so bored what the hell is the topic about? no idea la....
yesterday ig meeting till 7+
ahya come find me also ley...
touching....
she walk into rp...
so damn far de lo but she still walk here....

ber
i really pity u ah :x
enter ns a day before your birthday... :p

start of school....

2007-06-19T12:05:00.000+08:00

bored bored bored....
come back from 2 week holiday!!!!

so tired eh....
shoulder injure le... >.<

anyway went to hui hui bday party on 15th, so many people so noisy :p
got people give her balloon!! hahahaha
but so sad due to something... don't wish to mention here,
same like hui disappointed with someone....

hahahaha~ today's problem no presentation all role play fun ba~ :p

today got ig meeting so sianz.... dunno when then can reach home... :(

my mood now is.....
...let it be...

something that i wanted to remind myself:
don't pin too much hope one someone or something or else u're bound to be hurt!!

bored~~~

2007-05-19T22:18:00.000+08:00

today boss bday ah, i nv go he's bbq....
gonna get bully till i can cry le la....

my class mate keep mention about my age -.-"
HAhaha

just went to the dentist ouch~ it hurts..... :~(

what is life?
something for me to wonder on.....

by the way my school IT help desk very good~ :p
there's a virus call worm. (something)
everyone got that, and i use avg to remove. that AVG remove everything.
i went to IT help desk for help ( they say full house) and that person ask me install myself.
this is what they say to me "install yourself the program what you left is only the shell"
i though he mean reformate!! later he ask me didn't i know how to do it? just install program only. >.<

well not sure what to write now.... so slpy....

stupid driver :X

2007-04-30T11:34:00.000+08:00

Today i wake up as usual... 6:50 am
thinking that i shall catch the 8am bus as normally i will reach school around 8:50
(by the way the schooling hour changed to 9am).

BUT!!!!!!!!!!!!
the driver today drive to fast...
i reach interchange around 8:15am!!!!
what the.....
they got problem with me?
when my school start at 8:30 they drive so slow........ like tortise...
now soooooooooooooooooooooooooo far........
so i wait for fen fen to reach and walk to school together :x

Today's problem hard... LOL
about what bouncing box... >_<
don't care le...

Tml phobebe celebrate bday~

2007-04-28T20:27:00.000+08:00

I'm sick..........
sore throat + cough....
now can really die in school~ :p
imagine there's presentation daily and my throat hurts...

hmm.....
don't care.... LOL

yea~~~
all year 1~~
our timing changed to 9am~~~
no need to worried can't wake up or rushing to school
so now UT start at 9am~

but cannot walk to school with shifu le... >_<>
break time also got 1/2 hour different.

just did a IQ quiz alot maths qns i dont like maths.. :p
here's the result.....

feeling about RP

2007-04-22T02:03:00.000+08:00

School very tough!!!
project and projects....
Not enough time to complete it, research and learn!!!!

kinda moody now...
i got a C for that what thinking module!!!
must be i ask her to shhhhh.... LOL ( just to console myself)
nevermind her next lesson i will flood her to death with my kou shui!! LOL
and my rj!! used all the words up!!! LOL

this is how my schooling lfie is:

everyday 8:30 must reach school....
listen to faci talk rubbish and intro of the day's topic...
and do worksheet till

9:30 ( 1st break out )
stay in class relax abit and discuse abit till

10:30 ( end of break out)
start to discuse with class... and go through the worksheet and research abit till

11:30 (2nd break out)
continue with research.... and do ppt...
go eat
come back do ppt again till 1+++ around 2 pm...
upload files

2+ start presentation till 3+ around 4...
then the 6th presentation...
do the quiz...
end of the school day...
reach home
Do evalulation for team and ownself...
Do RJ...

long story about today~

2007-03-31T02:19:00.000+08:00

Today post will be long nah~

Went for enrolment at RP.....
some1 say i didn't photo copy my cert... hmmm....
and my gpa is 0.05 diff from what i registered.... didn't know that matters so much :x
seriously i really didn't know about that!!

brought fujitsu notebook~
onli 1.8kg but still very heavy
thank god i didn't buy that 2.4 kg notebook!!

it's confusing there.... LOL
fujitsu and acer fighting... comment bad things about each other!! LOL

anyway did a test here's the result...

At this time in your life you feel like 'giving up'. For every time you have tried to build up your hopes and dreams something has come along to burst the balloon. You may feel that, at this particular moment in your life, there seems to be no chance of fulfilling these dreams but you are so wrong. You are the sort of person that can influence any situation, that is - If you don't give up. So consciously make the effort... You have that inherent power to succeed.

You are looking for excitement and stimulation and you are ready to try anything - but be careful not to take too many risks.

It is amazing that you yourself believe that old 'adage' that you are a misunderstood person - and you feel that because of this you are being left out in the cold. It is because of this lack of believed understanding that you feel the need to conform to society in general - but this situation leaves you 'cold' knowing that you are not appreciated for your true self. Any relationship that you are developing at this time does not seem to involve any true emotional commitment, you seem to be just playing along.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in 'dreaming' but it is you - and only you - that can be able to realise those dreams and to turn them into reality.

STRESSED!!!!!!!

2007-03-29T00:30:00.000+08:00

DAMN!!!!!!!!!!
Seriously shall i celebrate when i saw that enrollment letter?
somehow or rather i feel like burning it!!

really.......
recieve that on 23rd of march..... told to enroll by 29th or 30th of march...
so is either today or tomorrow...

what i'm stressed about.....
they F%^#%^$ Rejected me and when I gave up on hope
the letter came!!! damn it.....

my parents quarrel about $
They comparing about my cousins and me...
Results..... compare with my brother who is studying pte...
tell me better work hard....

PEOPLE KEEP ASK WHAT COURSE I'M TALKING AND SO ON....
HOW GOOD IT IS TO TAKE THAT IT COURSE!!!

HEY IF YOU ARE IN MY SHOE YOU WON'T LIKE IT OK?

Don't assume that it's so easily just because you are not in that situtation.

so troubled........

ARGGGGGG

i might give up and don't study in poly...

new bg song~

2007-03-24T00:10:00.000+08:00

there's a song I like a song from FFX
there's 1 sentence which is very touching :
その顔そった触れて朝に溶ける夢見る

Now about my blog...
Just changed my bg sound to 星をめざして....

Nice song :p

ok now i post the lyric.... in jap....
don't ask me what it means ok? I don't have much idea too
( I had the romanji and chinese ver too :p)

一度死んでまだ生き返る
そんな魔法をかけられていた
目覚めたら君がいて光満ちていた
仆は生まれ変わった
皆いるかい星を目指して君に导かれ
歌いながら仆は歩き出す
振り返らないさ伤だらけの少年时代だろう
仆は确かに道に迷ってった
深い暗暗で孤独に泣いてた
目覚めたら君がいて光満ちていた
仆は生まれ変わった
皆いるかい星を目指して君に导かれ
歌いながら仆は歩き出す
振り返らないさもう二度とは同じ过ちを
爱の力の大きさと远さを思い知ったよ
振り返らないさもう二度とは同じ过ちを
爱の力の大きさと远さを思い知ったよ
星を目指して君に导かれ
皆いるかい星を目指して君に导かれ
歌いながら仆は歩き出す
振り返らないさ伤だらけの少年时代なろう（行こう）
星を目指して君に导かれ仆は歩き出す（行こう）
星を目指して歌いながら仆は歩き出す

smile pasta

2007-03-23T01:03:00.000+08:00

Today cook Soba~~~~
YEA YEA YEA

hmm watched abit of the Wei Xiao pasta
Not bad... :p

Disturb some one just now.... LOL
but so tired sia the day...
hmmm....
Decide to change the blog's skin use back old skin. :p

Lazy to look for new ones....
while surfing the net i found a game i love...
suikoden2.. seem like there's a pc version??
if there is 1 more thing to add to my wish list~ LOL

how will my day be like tomorrow?

hmmm... think of ndsl till mad...

2007-03-21T00:15:00.001+08:00

WAH
That day....
I dream that i was playing a black yet transparent nds lite...
but i just start playing some people come disturb me...
I went to chat with friends after that...
and
I wake up just like that!!
Must be think too much of that~ LOL

woo

2007-03-18T02:18:00.000+08:00

today talk to someone~ LOL
ask him to support me!!! hahahaha

nice~
no need to worried about future!!!

hmmm....
went to check on my allgery.... bored...
so many things i can't eat... NO LIFE~~~~~

I talk to friends about commiting suicide topic...
I really don't understand why people with good health wanted to do that?

they killed themself take away their own life....
how will people who is very sick and struggling to live on feel?

I bet they wanted to exchange with them~

Life is precious!!
In life we have to go through pain...
we had to fall down alot of times...
But after all life is still beautiful,
it depends how you look at it.

Every single little things is life is a happiness...
Being able to walk can be happiness...
Being able to see can be happiness...
Being able to talk can be happiness...

Because we never know how it is like when we had lost these ability,
we will only treasure things when it's gone~ isn't it? ^^

tml posting will be out will i get in rp???
thanks shifu for blessing us~ :p

lazy to blog

2007-03-14T15:11:00.000+08:00

so lazy to blog >_<
call me pig if you want to~ :p
pig is cute~

The picture below is to big can't dsiplay the whole thing...
so i make it smaller~

i had a laugh at that lol

am i really like that?
HAHAHA~

yesterday i had a chat with wen mei....
really wonder is there true love?

nah~
if there is i still won't believe in it~

What is love ?
How you know it's true love?

who can answer these question? :p

1 litre of tears

2007-03-08T23:53:00.000+08:00

Just watch 1 litre of tears,
the show so sad....
it's a real story~

somethings she saw really very touching...
so now i shall be thankful that i can walk~

cry till my head pain... >_<

2007-03-07T15:05:00.000+08:00

Went to jack place~
yeah~

the main point is that...
we saw a weird lady and a poor guy....

that lady ard 40+ or 50+ keep scold a young guy claim that he took her photo...
she keep curse him, say that her husband is a inspector and he was taugh how to curse people
by someone who is well known for cursing people in thailand...
she say that she isn't crazy dont think that she is and don't think that no people will take photo of a old woman like her.

hmm how i know so much it isn't that i'm kpo... >_<
but is she come and talk to us ley.... >_<

nitemare..

2007-02-28T14:50:00.000+08:00

what a nitemare i had today....
so scary...... >_<>_<

woooo
today talk to abang and went over to myspace to look at he's photo... LOL
I saw some blog i write years ago there so i shall move over here eh? HAHA~

Tuesday, November 18, 2003
fresh start

what's over are already over i shouldn't be thinking about the pass...
so i remove all my old post......looking forward......
Things will look more beauitful this way isn't it?although i really still love him.....
If i really love him,i should let him go off to find his happiness.
I let you go is because i too love you!
From today onwards i won't love you anymore! ^_^

Thursday, November 20, 2003
sad...........

yesterday.....
found out my ex have new gf le...
saded.......
but nvm.......
must try my best to forget him.....
the reason is that if i still keep "stick"to him it's unfair to that girl!!
kanbateh!!!! jia you!!!!! ^_^my new picture.........
everyone say i look so much older in this 1-2 month sad...........

Friday, November 21, 2003
finally!!!!!!

yes!!!!!
last paper today.......
so tired........ haven't since last nite........ :P~
throat pain again........ because i often throat pain.....cos i don't like to drink water..... blah......... ^_^

Tuesday, November 25, 2003
oh my god...........

after my last paper.....
i'm sick till now..... cough, sore throat, headache and flu......
even burn till myself..... all over injury...so bad luck eh?
haha~ but it's alright!!!! ^_^ small case only!!!

Tuesday, February 17, 2004
just to express my anger towards a job! :p

woah........
It have been age since i last log in and saw alot changes took place.....
these days i'm so busy......
getting ready for my o level (retook last yr again hope will pass!)then i looking for job and found one........
later felt i was under pay worker and no reason to give them for quiting job!so i show them attitude!! :p
come on just imagine working 12 hr per day and pay was like under 1k!
last time i work 8 hr per day my pay was much more then what i was getting this time!everyday doing cleaning!
yucks~

oh ya.... by the way i'm a sales person! Cleaning of cause is a must!
who will ever enter a dusty shop?
ever though i do cleaning every 2 to 3 day (always i do it so unfair!)
my shirt still keep on stain with dirt!I don't even have an hour break even for working 12 hour.

The job make me felt that 24hr isn't enough!you know why? working 12 hour per day left me with another 12 hour to spenddeduct 8 hour of sleeping time i onli left with 4 hourI spend lets say i spend 2 1/2 hour to and fro work place back homeI onli left 1 1/2 hour to relax myself!......Now i could rest my leg at home~ :p

Thursday, March 04, 2004
guys are strange

well... as like my topic....
before i was taking my o lvl.....
my ex wanted to teach me maths...
as i did badly for that so i agree... friends help each other am i right?
so when he was teaching me suddenly touch me and pat my head...
after teaching me maths he wanted to walk me home as he say he wanted to see the new supermarket near my place one so i agree...

on the way he ask me alot of qns like how my live and etc... then he suddenly hug me!!!
which shock me because he told me he have a gf nw...
somemore when we break he sae i no longer love me and won't regert breaking up with me.....well nvm abt it...

when i was working......he insist to meet me on lunar valentine day... he appear on my door steps..... and on our way to bus stop he was standing so near me!! when we are on the bus he ask for my hand say wat wan to see my hand... of cos i sae no!

when we reaching my work place he ask me to be his gf...... i reject too....

hey! nt i heartless okie?
we have been together for 1 1/2 year..... when we meet he dun even bother to talk to me..... say tons of hurtful things!!!

i will remember he say this : " i will never regret i break with you! i nv regret anything i decided and now i decide to break"well i guess this time he shall really regret!

Thursday, May 13, 2004
why can't they just leave me alone?

well, kinda sad that guys are so stubborn after repeating telling them
tat i'm not those type that will patch after a relationship turn sour.
to tell the truth,
i will still look back, seeing those happy memories they brought me...
continue being friends.....
well if i can't overcome the pain they brought me...so that's a bye bye for good.....
why can't they just let me off? they hurt me so deep... yet act like nothing had happen..... how much tears i shed for them are countless.... i'm really really tired.....

I wanted to scream this so much now, "PLEASE BE KIND ENOUGH TO LET ME GO! I'M KIND ENOUGH TO U ALL ALREADY! IF YOU REALLY LOVE ME JUST LEAVE ME ALONE DON'T MENTION ABOUT TIMES WE USED TO SPEND TOGETHER LAST TIME! IT WILL ONLY BRING BACK THOSE SAD MEMORIES!!!!!

Friday, November 26, 2004
A blur mistake i make

This week is my school exam week, end module exam.the waste things is that i though today paper is BFD ( one of my module) but actually is another module. Well lucky for me my classmate inform me about my mistake, but unluck for her friend as she heard i say it's BFD she went and study for that module.

bad luck year...

2007-02-27T15:12:00.000+08:00

Shit Shit Shit..........
I'm really super down on luck these days....
just few day from the chinese new year and i'm down on luck........

Dear god please.... KILL ME!!!! damn.......

On the 3rd day of chinese new year, I went to maine's house and fall down there.... >_<
hit my head and knees and toes...... *faint*

my head still hurts alot even after one whole week....... -.-"

yesterday i notice my another knee had blue black too...... hmm... when i injure it?

On the 4th day of chinese new year....
I bang into the train's door.......

ARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so pissed off by all these....... >_<

report out

2007-02-02T21:15:00.000+08:00

31st jan....
I went for another scan again...
the injection i got that day was the worst... :~(
hurts alot....

noon time i went over to get my report...
well good news...
It grow bigger by 1mm...

Bad news...
I saw more then 1 arrow drawn...
The doc mention about it too...
And
it might suddenly grow fast...

so....
shall i be happy?
or sad???

next year I have to go back for scan again...
I already had phobia of that scan!!! >_<

No topic

2007-01-21T23:37:00.000+08:00

Not sure what topic for today.... HAHAHA
but it's time to bully people!!!! *bleah*

ok ok i'm bad....
but i'm so bored.....
anyway isn't this guy cute???
feel like pinching he's face!!! *shy*

damn...
I miss my granny....
I know that your suffering in this world had ended but I still misses you alot

Tomorrow will be a better day~~~~

i wanted to strike 4D

2006-11-07T17:04:00.000+08:00

oh please...
let me strike 4D!!!! LOL

It's not even night time and i start to dream~~~
To be exact it's call day dreaming~

If everyone can choose their own dream, what will you want your dream to be?

I want to tour around the world, leading a carefree life~

It will always be a dream. ^^

changing my diet

2006-09-27T00:10:00.000+08:00

i have to change my diet!!!!
vegetables and fruits are poison to me!!!
i have to change this thinking!!!
had been trying to cut down the consume of meat these days ^^
trying to eat more vegetables or fruits more then meat and drink lots of water!!!

now i'm trying to maintain health life~ HAHA
but i guess i will give up soon :p
got to sleep early somemore so no more late night snack for me :~(

Always remember our body repair itself better between 2200 to 0200

boring day!!!

2006-09-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

hmm today is a boring day,
anyway last night while i was chatting with someone.
i remember something sad >_<
if there's still a chance i wanted to tell a girl
this --> so sorry keep rejecting to meet up with you girls.
anyway she's no longer around... *sigh*

so anyone of my friends believe in ghost?
i do believe in them!!!!

i had read ?と彼女の××× comic version!!! it's nice~~ HAHA
(ps i wonder will the word be shown??? this script can't use chinese and so on anyway just incase it's boku to kanojo XXX)

kinda worried about my health too
what does it meant by giddy, vomiting feeling? and headache???
if these symptom appear i have to make a trip to the hospital.

ahhhh...
I hate hospital I believe no people like it!!! >_<
let's recount the scan and testes i had done~

CT(have to drink some yuckie medicine and later they inject medicine into me a dip), MRI( dip are placed and mid way though the scan have to inject medicine. So far I had done 3 type of MRI and i had done 4 MRI scan so far),
x-ray,
ultrasound (eh mind you I'm not pregnant!!!),
hearing test,
scope( the put something through my nose to my throat and they checked ear thinking back about it still hurts *ouch*),
hearing test (in a room when you heard sound press the bell or something the sound can be so soft~),
vision test (look straight and when you saw light press the bell too).

all these scan and testes make me sound so sick!!!
now every 3 month I had to go back for checkup!!!
next year going to do another MRI scan!!!!
totally nightmare!!!!!!

who else still think that i'm leading a good life come we exchange!!!!!!!!!!

hmmm

2006-09-12T01:53:00.000+08:00

nothing much to do these days.
see that my blog so long didn't update so today i'm going to add photo~ LOL
now i'm so crazy about an anime "Host" it's so funny~ LOL Princess Princess also not bad~ ^^

do we look like lesbian???

come kiss kiss~ LOL~

ok this really really prove that i'm so bored!!!!

anyway my report is...
wait another 1/2 year. LOL
why?
because my doctor in charge isn't free so they tell me observe for another 1/2 year
if it's giving me problem or will it grow bigger!!!
but i hate doing MRI!!!

seriously i hate doing it alot!!!!
man...... i rather die without knowing :x

some sentence i create today meant to be a joke :x --> "you walk into my life and brought tears, i walk into your life and brought shit!!!"

so long didn't update

2006-08-09T22:32:00.000+08:00

hmmm,
it had been sometimes since i last update my blog,
so tired these days!!!

that day on my bday,
my friends they are so sweet!!!!!

brought me a necky and a surpise cake. *laugh*

2 year ago

2006-07-10T19:34:00.000+08:00

when i think back about the operation i had 2 year ago.
my hand turn cold...

after the operation they wake me up in a room ask me to rate how painful i am.
then they push me back to my ward.
i had to mvoe to bed myself and change clothes of coz i change it much later.
the pain was so great that i nearly cry and can't move my toes too... >_<
can't sit up too, find it hard to eat.... :(

should i or shouldn't i?

2006-07-07T21:55:00.000+08:00

ok one tough question
shall i go for my operation or not?
it's near to my forehead.
they need to drill a hole on my skull which wun recover..
*sigh*

going op again...

2006-07-05T17:17:00.000+08:00

super duper down on my luck recently,
last month i went to hospital to see my docter for checkup,
she send me to ent(ear nose throat) department because i have ringing in ear problem.
after alot tests, i was send to do MRI.

on the 30th june i did my MRI.
when i reach home, they called to inform me that the send me to neroscience.(did i spell it right? anyway it's the head department.)

today i went that,
the result is that in my brain there's something there,
hmm maybe is a tumor....
not sure yet...
have to do another scan to locate the thing then i will go for operation.
that's what the doctor tell me!

this is the list of question they ask:

any numbness in hand or leg?
any sign of behavior change?
any weakness or hand or leg?
any suddenly change in vision?
any memory lost?
any giddyness any feeling of puking?
blah blah blah

so if any of my dear friends have these symptom
please visit a doctor ok?

ARGGGGGG

2006-06-21T17:03:00.000+08:00

i'm going crazy soon!
everyday going to hospital is really making me piss off!
i rather die then having to be check here and there!

what rubbish!

ARG!!!!!!!!
will someone kick me down the stairs!!
let them check all they want!!!

super duper angry now.......

yesterday been to hospital....
today going hospital visit my dad...
tml going to hospital to check up
nxt week also........ ARG!!!

I HATE HOSPITAL

i had enough of people telling me,
how good life i have!
i didn't have a job yet

hello excuse me,
you're not me how you know?

if you really think so,
try to switch with me then!!

what the fuck!

so tired

2006-06-14T00:58:00.000+08:00

ahhhh
i still feel so tired after sleeping 12 hour
my body feel so weak...
didn't know what is wrong with me.... >_<

hope it will be better tomorrow :(

my busy day~

2006-06-10T02:00:00.000+08:00

wake up play CO awhile then went to hospital.....
detail i don't wish to say~ LOL
then run to MRT station to take train to harbour front...
and went to sentosa for the I weekly 25th year super concert~

starting kelly, junyang, campus superstar the 3 of them ( 2 1/2 guy and a 1/2 girl :X)
if you know the top 4 of campus superstar you should know who is the 1/2 girl i'm talking about :p anyway i'm not insulting her. she look great today then she normally do in school quite girlsh ^^

of cause there's super band!!!
they sing well....
but my ears hurts, those fans keep waving their hand have to delete alot photo i took with maine cam!!!
but i prefer Brods then any others!! they sing one night in BeiJing

lastly there's Tank!! oh my god he's quite handsome!!!
he sang 2 song~ they are so nice~

looking forward to sundays recording~ ^^

after that we went to mac to eat, at around 12 we reach the station and it's the last train so we run all the way!!
went we reach outram park!! it's the last train too so we ran after the train again!!LOL

whole day seem to be running after MRT!!!

just try this.... guys give it a try ^_*

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feeling lost

2006-04-29T05:18:00.001+08:00

what actually do i want?
i really don't know just wanted to be alone and sort things out

do i love him?
do i actually miss him?
do i really wanted to go back to him?
does he felt the same about me?

half of me was like i wanted to be with him
another half not.... because failed in the relationship once...

is this life?
feeling so lost so hopeless...

anyway my application to poly was unsucessful...
need to work and earn myself a living and enter pte sch to continue this lonely path of my own~

maybe i'm cheating myself that single is the best...
but i'm sure i'm sick and tired of relationship!!!!

life sucks

2006-04-13T16:19:00.000+08:00

ok,
i really really wanted to comment life sucks!!
can i?

sunday i was staying out late with friends and chit chating
suddenly i saw someone siting oppsite us
never about the detail of that

monday my neighbour had heart attack
he's face all turn purplish...
and he couldn't make it....

yesterday i ws told another of my relative pass away...

what else can i say?

anyway on wednesday i went ot watch ultraviolet~
LOL how i wish i can be like her!!
vampire~ so skillful
so great
one woman can kill so many men!!

and her clothes, hair can change as and when she like!!

today headache alot

2006-04-04T23:09:00.000+08:00

papa ask me to do a website blog for the single club..... lol
xanga cannot save skin so have to do one here....
later ask him to create account ba....

maybe later i juz copy and paste codes.....
won't be doing editing.....
because coding make me headache..... HAHA

i guess all coder will say this!

don't know why nose so itchy....
tml meeting papa and friends......
my friend wonder wat movie to watch......
i also dunno........ *faint*

watched ice age 2

2006-04-03T17:39:00.000+08:00

actually wanted to watch hills have eyes,
but in the end we didn't...
we watch ice age instead

we reach there around 1 + pm....
and the show start at 4
around 2+ we went to eat....
the jap food not so nice -.-"
eat till quite full....

and they play car racing game till 4+

late when meeting my papa and friends
because when i woke up by de hua....
i was busy calling and sms-ing wen mei.....
help her to find reason to come out....

all didn't work....
haiz.........

she gd gal ba.......
but hor dun seem like.... :P

oh no i grow fat le

2006-04-01T03:41:00.000+08:00

kinda sad to find out i grow fat already!!!
few of my 3/4 pants cannot wear le.....
i must slim down!!!!!!!
hahahaha but i will be lazy to do that.....

really miss my granny alot but this is life have to accept the fact right?
sometimes i feel single is the best!! :p
dun want talk about all these sad stuff...

just went to eat with my friends...
only eat abit......

very tired today....
last night didn't sleep at all... *yawnz*

will be sleeping early today......

wish myself.... sweet dream~

stupid dream

2006-03-23T15:46:00.000+08:00

on the 19th of march i had a dream,
i was at a funeral and saw the photo of the person passed away
and i was informed by someone that this person is from my mother side.

i wake up and told my mother this....
and on tuesday she show me newpaper and point to a old man
she told me he's my grand-pa's side relative....

i look at the photo that is in the newspaper is the same as that one i saw in my dream!!!

from my old blog :p

2006-03-22T15:44:00.000+08:00

i just found this blog!!!! my super old blog and i decide to paste here :x
that blog i'm going to delete because it only had one entry!! LOL

about me...... ^_^
3/21/2004
2 day ago
i went out with my friend she call her boyfriend along as she wanted to meet him
they was so loving in front of and so i ring my ex-boyfriend to chat awhile and he lost his temper towards me and i got alot of scolding from him!!
Left with no choice but to see my friend and her boyfriend holding hand , hugs and etc with each other.....
yesterday
I went to visit the body world exhibition which held at singapore expo (last day)
it's rather boring there,
as the staff there were unfriendly (maybe because last day too many people)
Franky speaking it's not a enjoyable trip as once we step into the exhibition hall we could smell the stronge but not yet choking chemical smell.
It really have nothing much to see as i believe they didn't move everything to singapore. Not even 1/4 i guess..
when we have questions nobody was there to help us, it's the only pity i felt about the whole trip.

2 more days...

2006-03-08T14:42:00.000+08:00

2 more days,
my grandma had gone for 3 weeks.....
can invite her to the zu xian wei le....

just now went over to prepare food for my granny....
shocked to see someone at home.... >_<"

anyway yesterday just had my EBP exam..... everything forget!! *stressed*

just change my blog skin again....
the song very nice~ kekekeke~

miss my granny alot....
didn't have her recent photo... Haiz....

my grandmother had passed away....

2006-02-17T19:45:00.000+08:00

hmmm.....
when i was sleeping 1/2 way.....
i plan to visit her later after school.....

i was woke up by my brother
i was inform that my grandmother had gone....
at 3:40...... i was inform of that.....

maybe it's better because she suffer alot....
her leg are blue black too....
lung infected....
and alot....

learn to treasure things in life!!

2006-01-21T15:21:00.000+08:00

been busy with projects!!!
had a strange dream about my granny that she actually recover
and celebrate the upcoming chinese new year with us...
then she suddenly tell us, she cannot make it....

she always tell us that....
i from young will reply her....
granny you will live a long life.... you will out do me!!!

she was sent to hospital again...
actually can discharge on monday
but....

anyway we are told on tuesday that....
her life will end anytime....

granny,
although you hate me alot when i was very young,
used to scold me, hit me and pull my hair all the way home....
didn't feed me when i was crying for milk....

there are times that you are nice to me too....
gave me fishball.... fishcake...
bring me to playground,
buy me sweets and cakes....
tell me bed time story about a monster eat naughty children...
tell me to study hard....
and alot alot....

when i heard that you wake up one mid-night to look for me,
thinking that i was sleeping with you....
you walk around the house....
i nearly cry.....

i really wanted to bring you out to eat....
anything you want!

even like that time just take a cab down to bukit batok...
juz to eat bo bo cha cha....

juz let it happen once more....

ARG

2006-01-04T14:00:00.000+08:00

i'm only 20 year old what the expect me to do?
behave like i'm 30+ that mature?

my shoulder is small i can't carry budden!!!

i have my own trouble myself....
why are they so damn selfish....
they're trouble just push to problem away to each other....

sometimes stress is reali not something for me to handle ba....

maybe.....
just maybe.....
i'm not belong here, on earth....

i told her don't shout at that heartless people...
cool down and talk to them...
what if they unhappy that you shout at them
give you more trouble
how?

nothing wrong with this advice but she shouted at me again
can't they learn to control emotion like how they expect me to?

boring new year eve

2006-01-01T12:04:00.000+08:00

today ah sleep at 5 am...
wake up at 10am
went to hospital to see my granny....
haiz....

aiya their things i can't be bother...
say also angry....

then reach home at 6+

use comp till now lo....

yea 9 pm i will see channel 56 shutter~ nice~

anyway today i read this online very meaningful -->
(it's in chinese dunno can display chinese anot aiya nvm....)

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new skin~

2005-12-31T20:11:00.000+08:00

yea yea~
i changed new skin~
kind of laggy....
thanks to will that help me and guide me all along~
xie xie ni le~
he guide to along to add the clock...
the colour.... ^^

anyway....
i like tatty teddy aka me to you....

tatty- torn;worn out.... etc la...

the story is nice...

but i love my monya hubby more~

today know alot sad news of him...
like what he sae...
won't affect me too much de la
erm shall be yesterday coz now 4am le....

i believe in karma~ LOL...

31st le
what is my new year hope ley
it's to move on from my past~
yea yea~ ^^